My husband took our son to Milwaukee this weekend to visit his family. Due to it being Summer, of course I'm working. Although, lets be honest, it's all super fun and not really work! Anyways… this leaves me husband and childless. My first thought was “omg, I can go out with the girls!” But in reality, I'm sitting here in sweats, eating watermelon directly out of the Tupperware and binge watching Honey Boo Boo while I type up this blog.
Is this normal? I have the freedom to do what I please, try to relive my youth, but I'd rather sit in quiet?
I'm used to utter chaos when I get home. I have a 2 year old who has an addiction to Paw Patrol and my nights are spent with him doing color, shape and number flashcards. After a long day of work, it can be overwhelming to have to continue having a functioning brain at the end of the day.
So, while I was excited to go out, party and have some freedom fun… I think my body is telling me to enjoy the silence. But, for some reason… I feel empty. I keep thinking that I hear my kid calling me from his room and have to continuously remind myself that he's not here.
As you can probably tell, I don't get this opportunity often. What am I supposed to do with myself? I have a sense of guilt that I should be doing something for him even though he's not here. What's wrong with me? Is this normal? This can't be normal. …. okay it's probably normal.
